I thought maybe difficult child was going to make it through the evening without raging. What an optimist I am (unbeknownst to me LOL)! First, he disappeared for about 40 mins. This is a HORRIBLE sign for him. Then, he raged and although it was short-lived, the things he did were frightening- enough that I now have to think psychiatric hospital. I don't know if it is this wway everywhere, but here it is almost impossible to get them in. Let's just say, you have to try to make sure there is an opening in a local psychiatric hospital or the kid could be sent anywhere. Then, of course, their idea of "immenent danger" is not exactly the same as mine. So, I made a couple of calls- so far I got no answers. I've called twice for psychiatrist and he hasn't returned a call. They did say he was in the office. And what can I expect him to do that will stop this TODAY? difficult child refused to get out of bed this morning- he is still in bed. I find it hard to believe that the zyprexa has him knocked right now. I see no signs of him being up last night- but that isn't to say it couldn't have happened. He just tells me "he is sick". I should wake hhim up, but quite frankly, I can't stand the state of mind he might be in. I can't even tell if he is shutting down or what right now. Obviously, this is not working right now. My gut says I will not be able to get him in. So, that means I have to sit and wait for that minute when he meets their definition of acute and miracously have the strategies in place and leave him at that point in time to try to make a phone call. RIGHT.... Each time in the past when I have gotten to this point and throw my arms up and someone else stepped in, I have SOOOO majorly regretted it and felt horrible after he became stable because I looked back on it and could see that he was sick and needed better mental health care. But, as I sit here going through it again, the frustration of not being able to turn things around on my own or getting adequate help to do it, especially when it feels like he isn't helping himself and almost tries to make things harder on me- it makes me want to scream sometimes. But, can I really expect that he is going to be in whatever state of mind this is and willingly go to the ER of the psychiatric hospital and tell them his thoughts and actions?