She was discharged this morning, we went for our intake appointment. for the partial program which starts tomorrow. That went okay. She was getting a little aggitated because we had to wait in the waiting room for over an hour. She handled that pretty well considering. No cursing, which was really good for her. She got very defensive during the interview as she absolutely hates to hear about her bad behavior. So when I mentioned her making bad choices or getting very angry and going into a rage, or anything regarding her behavior she got mad. To her credit she handled it better than usual. I am disappointed because the partial program is only until 1 pm during the summer. I guess I'll take what I can get at this point. So we are home and of course she is on the computer talking to strangers on her myspace page. She has this garbage music blasting, that is something I definately didn't miss!!! For the most part she has done very well today, she has been cleaning up after herself and has been generally pleasant. However, she starts in on me about not going to the partial program and how it is her summer and if she doesn't want to go she wont!!! Oh great, not even 24 hours at home and she is already refusing to do what she needs to. So I told her she had to go and that was that. Here we go with the "When I'm 18 I'm not going to therapy or taking my medications and there is nothing you can do about it" SHE'S BACK!!! So I told her that she was right, if she doesn't do her part to help herself then there is nothing I can do for her. I will no longer bend over backwards to help her, I will no longer fight with her to make good choices and I will no longer pick up her pieces or leave my house in the middle of the night to pick her up for that matter. I told her the choice was hers, she is the only one who can change her life, if she isn't pro-active in helping herself than I won't help her either. I told her that I would go the ends of the earth for her as long as she is making an effort to get better, if not, than she is on her own!!! The last thing I said to her was "If you choose not to comply with your treatment plan or not to take your medication when you are 18 than you cannot live in my house!!!" I know all too well what is coming. I can feel it. I knew some of the old stuff would surface but I didn't think this quickly. I don't want to take away from her progress, I really do see some changes, she would have normally went off on me, cursing, ranting and raving and she didn't. She was able to control herself. That is a plus!! I can, however sense the rage right beneath the surface. And truthfully I am so done with this, I have no energy nor the desire to fight with her everyday. I have done all I can for her, there is simply nothing left for me to do except allow her to fall and hit the bottom so she can find her own way back up. I am mentally and emotionally drained. Does anyone have any opinions regarding her medications?: AM medications: Lithium Carbonate 900 mgs Haldol 5mgs Lamictal 75 mgs Cogentin 1 mg Geodon 80 mgs Noon medications: Haldol 5 mgs PM medications: Lithium Carbonate 600 mgs Haldol 5 mgs Cogentin 1 mg Geodon 80 mgs The plan is to titrate up on the Lamictal and once that is where it should be discontinue the Lithium and the Haldol. What do you think? I hate the haldol because it makes her sleepy but I think that is what is keeping her so calm. Opinions please???? Thanks for listening.