i wasn't going to share it because most of you know the stress i've been under and you'll think i've finally bought the farm. Yet i thought it was kinda odd and cool and weird.
so, in the past way way past after my grandmother passed i would have dreams of her. She'd come to my dreams, ask me how i was, the girls, etc. tell me she loved me was fine. she was like a mom to me.
Id' even get calls on xmas eve (that was our time to talk for recipes) with caller i.d. stating her last name i'd pick it up and a woman would say i'm sorry i have wrong number but merry xmas sweetheart. WEIRD....... my mom would always get so mad at me that my grandmother would be in my dreams and not hers lol. I was with my grandmother though when they took her off life support i didnt' want her to be alone when she went.
ok back to main point, i'm bouncing around alot lately sheesh my father passed almost a year ago now. well i found out a year ago last xmas. long story his wife never contacted me when he died suddenly. yea i know sick. him and i were estranged shared a few phone calls a year, he sent girls and i money ea. birthday xmas
past several nights i'm dreaming about him. i have only had one dream of him was mos. ago he came to me said he was sorry, he was alright for me to have a good life. yes odd.
these are different and kinda bugging me. he's upset in them, very very sad in them. is trying to tell me junk yet i can't make out what he's saying. i actually woke up today with tears, had to double check ok where i am sort of thing on awakening.
husband and i planned to go up to n.c. to see his plot, etc. yet difficult child than got sick so we had to put it on hold.
i know we can all say stress related, etc. or maybe issues there i havent handled yet, or maybe didnt' deal with-his death yet and it's in my subconscious.
anyone else ever have this happen to them??
tonite im going to bed prepared to say to him ok spit it out already and just tell me!! lol
so, in the past way way past after my grandmother passed i would have dreams of her. She'd come to my dreams, ask me how i was, the girls, etc. tell me she loved me was fine. she was like a mom to me.
Id' even get calls on xmas eve (that was our time to talk for recipes) with caller i.d. stating her last name i'd pick it up and a woman would say i'm sorry i have wrong number but merry xmas sweetheart. WEIRD....... my mom would always get so mad at me that my grandmother would be in my dreams and not hers lol. I was with my grandmother though when they took her off life support i didnt' want her to be alone when she went.
ok back to main point, i'm bouncing around alot lately sheesh my father passed almost a year ago now. well i found out a year ago last xmas. long story his wife never contacted me when he died suddenly. yea i know sick. him and i were estranged shared a few phone calls a year, he sent girls and i money ea. birthday xmas
past several nights i'm dreaming about him. i have only had one dream of him was mos. ago he came to me said he was sorry, he was alright for me to have a good life. yes odd.
these are different and kinda bugging me. he's upset in them, very very sad in them. is trying to tell me junk yet i can't make out what he's saying. i actually woke up today with tears, had to double check ok where i am sort of thing on awakening.
husband and i planned to go up to n.c. to see his plot, etc. yet difficult child than got sick so we had to put it on hold.
i know we can all say stress related, etc. or maybe issues there i havent handled yet, or maybe didnt' deal with-his death yet and it's in my subconscious.
anyone else ever have this happen to them??
tonite im going to bed prepared to say to him ok spit it out already and just tell me!! lol