I just heard from the exgf's mother that my Difficult Child called her and they are going to meet tonight. She says that he asked if she could help him "one more time before I leave" When she asked him where he was going, he said " Home, to Illinois." He told her that he knows people here and that if he's here, he won't have to sleep outside. That ship has sailed-I can't think of ONE person whom he still knows here and the ones he does know probably won't want much to do with him. I freaked out and told her that there was nothing here for him-I am barely keeping my head above water and even if I were, I cannot help him. I will NEVER put myself in that kind of danger again. So they are going to meet-she thinks he will ask her for a bus ticket here and based on our conversation, she's not going to give it to him. I told her that she can call me when they are together and that I will tell him these things myself. As always, t's so contrary to what parents are supposed to do, but then again, kids are not supposed to hit their mothers, be verbally abusive, destroy property and be continually high or drunk. I hate everything about this. My heart is racing. I just went out and bought a bottle of wine (I have a problem with alcohol-probably where he gets the gene from) and I KNOW it's not the answer, but right now I just want to blot everything out.