Sometimes that's easier said than done but I'm trying. I've tried to keep myself calm today and I'm actually doing somewhat ok. I reached out to a homeless outreach group for mentally ill people today so I hope to hear back from them soon in regards to difficult child. When he called earlier he was a bit surly but I firmly told him he needs to stop with the attitude bc I'm trying to help him. I told him this was his decision and it's his situation and he needs to chill while I try to help. I also told him to get out there and try to get himself some help as well. There is a community soup kitchen that offers help and has outreach advocates so he needs to go there. He didn't feel like going today he said. Uggggh! He did say he put in two job apps so I guess that's something. So I'm trying to stay calm and not let this take over my life again. One day at a time.