First off, let me apologize for not responding to many posts since I've returned from Florida. Things here have become overwhelming and I don't feel as though I'd be much help to anyone right now. I am keeping everyone in my prayers though. Where to start? *Well since this is general I'll start with difficult child. He has continued to struggle and has had many stw and problems at school as well. Yesterday we received noticed from the social worker who is his case manager of the county program he has been in for 18 months that difficult child's transition meeting is Wednesday (tomorrow)! The program only goes for 18 months and we can apply for an extension (up to 6 months which is hardly ever given-mostly only for those currently hospitalized). This is the program that provides us with respite-when it's gone so is respite and all of difficult child's summer camps by the way, the meeting is at 2:30 in the afternoon-no way husband or I can be there. husband is writing a letter and I'm going to make a phone conference appearance for about 10 minutes. *Onto easy child who once again is much more difficult child than easy child right now. Her day started off bad and ended up worse. I dropped her off at the gas station because we were later than 7:30 and she started screaming, calling me stupid, saying she wanted to kick me etc... I told her she had 3 seconds to get out of the car or I was taking off and she would be at my school with me. She got out and walked. After school she was mad when I brought up her treatment of me. Then husband was upset with how she was treating me. Also she has several forms to fill out for her scholarship program. She has known about this since September and the deadline is Friday. It is a lot of writing but nothing she can't do. husband was trying to guide her through it but she was being a pain about it and finally husband lost it and yelled at her telling her she was capable but needed not to be so lazy. She said since she was lazy she would just dig herself a hole and live in it. husband rarely yells but he is at the end of his rope right now with both easy child and difficult child (he even yelled at difficult child who was, of course, being a pita but then difficult child cried so hard he got a bloody nose). She has spent the night in her room curled up in a little ball. *husband is so stressed, his dad isn't doing very well, will be needing a serious surgery and possibly end up having his leg amputated. So husband is dealing with that and all of the stress the kids are putting on him as well. Thanks if you made it this far. I am feeling overwhelmed and a bit scared right now. I will be calling easy child's psychiatrist tomorrow. I don't know what else to do right now but I have a pit in the stomach feeling.