Hi all, I am new here but unfortunately not new to having a difficult child. It has been difficult since she was 5. Last week she left for another state saying she would be back in a few weeks only to find out now she's not planning on coming back. It is a very long story and I will post it once I can form a clear thought and stop crying but my question today is how do you move on?. How do you find happiness and joy again because right now this feels like total hell. She left last Wednesday's and every day we find out she's putting herself further at risk and hanging out with the wrong crowd. I know she's an adult and could have made better choices but I feel like the whole thing is my fault. I keep going back in time thinking what I could have done differently and where I went wrong. I am not perfect but I have no idea how she got on this path. All I can do is pray and even that doesn't bring any comfort. She tells people that we abuse her , she even set up a crowd sourcing site to raise money to get away from her 'abusive family'!. I have been just beside myself and have cried more than I could have ever imagined in the last week. We keep asking her to come home, that we will help her and I know that's enabling but I feel helpless right now. I feel like nothing is ever going to be okay again. How do you do this????? I don't want to get the call someday that she is dead. I have been reading the posts on this website for the last few days and everything is so familiar to me. I have to stop reading sometimes because it just hurts too much. It hits too close to home. She left for a few months last year but came back and things were going well, I don't know how this happened . I am just beside myself with worry and grief. I have a younger child and I know I need to be okay for him but I cannot stop crying.