The last year or so I've been in a great deal of pain from the multitude of diagnosis's I've been given. The latest is post herpetic encephalopathy & neurological & musculoskeletal disorder not otherwise specified. And of course the Cushings Disease. The head, neck & body pain is disabling. I cannot use the stairs in my home or walk with-o a cane or walker. I struggle to get into our shower (antique clawfoot bathtub with brass legs for sale) & I need to use a shower stool. I have a sit/stand stool in the kitchen but can only tolerate it for 10 minutes before I need to get back to a more comfortable position. I've been reluctant to use the pain medications I've been prescribed (vicodyn & methadone) because of the goofiness however today I took all the medications as prescribed & used the PRNs. I had the best day in a couple of months. The pain was relieved & I walked about the house. I made it up & down the stairs once; I sat & painted for 3 hours straight. (I didn't pace myself, but I felt so good!) Neuro doctor, Mayo doctor & GP all feel this level & dosage of pain medication is necessary. I'm terrified of addiction. The above listed docs aren't. I'm also terrified of becoming a total invalid because of the pain. My life has become very isolated & very restricted over the last year & the "recovery" period promises to be long, painful & the prognosis is unknown. husband is very concerned; he hates seeing me in pain & my inability to function with-o the pain medications. I can function at a much higher level than when I don't take these medications. My dad, who hadn't seen me in over a year, was shocked at my appearance & my physical decline. I told husband that I need to take whatever it takes to function at my highest level ~ just like I've always said with the tweedles. What are your thoughts on long term use of narcotic pain medications?