My poor brother was in the marines a long tome ago. He's never been the same. He just killed himself this afternoon. The police are still at my parents house. They have to do an autopsy. There was no note. Besides my sister and parents, nobody knows. You ladies are the only ones I can reach out to. My poor brother! My poor parents! I have been laying on my floor crying for an hour. I can't even think straight. I have to go to Fl. My dad is so sick in addition to all this. I'm sorry, I want to throw some things. How? Why? The poor guy!!!! What do I do? I'm not strong. husband is asking me about baseball and dinner. He has no idea how to help me, this is new territory. I just am breathing in and out, that's all I can manage.