I've been hiding with my girls, we've all been severely under the weather Ok so Saturday difficult child, easy child and I went to the park with an old high school friend and their easy child, went fantastic. difficult child only ran once! Since I had a friend there I was able to leave easy child in the stroller and sprint after her. Today we had a psychiatrist appointment. In the hour and a half wait difficult child had a meltdown. Since our psychiatrist is at the offices of a children's hospital there were all kinds of parents in the waiting room, I got all sorts of interesting looks while fighting to restrain difficult child with easy child in her Moby Wrap. It was our first major meltdown in a month, so I wasn't prepared at all. We increased risperdal again because of sleep and the off the wall comments difficult child makes then doesn't remember. Not increasing Depakote and psychiatrist admitted to not liking the stuff but not knowing what else to use. Also continuing with melatonin. All in all, when I sit down with psychiatrist I remember just how far we've come and although Im still exhausted and the house is a mess, I feel a little better.