I am angry with my son's insurance company, with his psychiatrist, his therapist and his caseworker. They don't seem to realize that I do have a brain and may know what is best for my child. Okay....neither he or his brother are my biologically born children. They were born to my son and his deceased ex wife. I took custody of the two boys when they were 9 mos and 18 mos old and kicked their bio parents out of my home. They had lived with me from the time the older boy Daniel was 10 wks old. Bio mom was mentally ill (wound up setting fire to herself 2 yrs ago and spent 3 mos in a burn unit before she passed) My son...well....he is emotionally unstable and could not deal with the boys. Bio mom had attempted suicide with neuro medications while pregnant with the younger of the two boys and David was born with problems. I took custody in 2002, bio mom left the area in 2003, and I adopted the boys in 2004. Daniel is 10 and will be 11 in Aug. He has been in theraphy for PTSD since the age of 6 but puberty started this year and anger he had been able to control in the past is no longer controllable. He has been diagnosis'd with not only the PTSD but with ODD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), ADHD and Manic Depressive Disorder. He has been baker acted twice since Jan..one for a suicide attempt and once for knocking me down three times in a wk and trying to choke me. I want him placed for a 30-60 day period, taken off all the medications and let us try again to get his medications right while being monitored for adverse reactions. Heck, the nurse I spokle with at the insurance company today was trying to tell me that he may need permanent long term placement and that I should think about giving up custody of him and letting DCF place him in a therapuetic forster home. We have not had issues for even six months and they are ready to throw him to the wolves. by the way..the PTSD is due to bio mom trying to drown him before I took custody. Seems that one of the things they are worried about is ME. I am a 58 yr old disabled woman and I am a widow. Mentally, although I suffer from depression, I am very strong. I just get tired sometimes of having to fight for everything for my boys. I have a back injury from a nursing accident and a few other problems but I do okay. Their other concern (mine too) is Daniel's affect on David. David is also 10 but just turned 10 in May. He was born preemie at 33 wks by emergency c-sec. Bio mom had attempted suicide when she was at 26 wks gestation. Part of David's brain had not developed and he was diagnosis'd with hydrocephalus while an infant but did not need shunts. He has had to have surgery on his spine. He is developmentally delayed, has ADHD and is an Aspie (Aspergers). By the time he was 8 he knew all the countries in the world and their capitols. He draws maps of the world and the US with all in place including capitols. He has also taught himself all about the planets and their moons. He has picked up some of Daniel's bad habits with losing control with his temper and making threats of killing himself or hurting others. Thing is...he really does not do this purposely, he is mimicking. Daniel is currently on Depakote 500mg at night with 0.1mg clonidine and Wellbutrin 100mg in the am and at 3 pm. David is on 2mg of Abilify at night, 50mg of Celexa in the am as well as Focalin XR 150mg. Me, I am on Lexapro, Cymbalta, Vytorin, Lyrica, Prilosec and Cardizem. Would love to hear any input. I don't think they can force me to give up my son. I think they are thinking it would be cheaper for them to get him on medicaid and the only way they can is for him to lose me. I have been the only steady person in these boys' lives.