Ya'll I am trying so hard to redirect. Yes my hubby and I had fun. It was glorious. I went to the beach all by myself after I dropped him off at the ballfield. Divine. I appreciate all of your wisdom. Witz - I did remember what you have told me at the end of your posts - set yourself free - I did feel it. It is pouring rain here now - sometimes I wonder if he is soaking wet or what - but I am trying to redirect and go get my sister something for her birthday. Somehow I hope it will all be alright. It is hardest I think for me at night. I think how darkness makes you feel sometimes. It is sad to be alone at night - so I think I will try and not worry about that and let my Higher Power help me - my hubby does too - he is so different than me - he doesnt worry about things like I do - thank goodness - I will go back and reread the posts again. (smile) I still need you guys though!