saving grace
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Hello friends
Just like my thread topic states. When i remembered there was a place to come i felt a small weight lift. I had been feeling like i was drowning and i couldn't breathe i needed to talk i needed to vent and there wasn't anyone i could talk to.
The past couple of years has been horrible some small bumps some frustrating bad decisions but manageable. He treated successfully for Hepatitis C. But since then it has gone down hill with no brakes.
His girlfriend who 6 years ago was a life saver to him turned to drugs and he thought he could save her. He thought himself a hypocrite if he left her because she was using.
What has come next is almost impossible to write. She did very bad things to attain her drugs. He had been abusing klonopin for his anxiety an ex friend of the girlfriend contacted my boy and told him all of the gory details of gfs activities he is of course crushed somehow ends up shacking up with the whistle blower. Revenge? Probably. That he cant spend one minute alone probably.
Jump forward 2 months he has now completely relapsed, using cocaine lying and stealing he has been suspended twice from work for not showing up. I could go on and on.
My heart is torn open. I am finding it very hard to remember how to separate myself from this. His problems are consuming me morning noon and night. My family is suffering from my distractions. Its not fair to them. Its not fair to me. I supported him when he relapsed with the assumption that he would get back on track using the knowledge that he has acquired over the last 6 years of sobriety. But he hasn't. He lies and apologizes in the same day. I am nack to square one and i need guidance.
Grace
Just like my thread topic states. When i remembered there was a place to come i felt a small weight lift. I had been feeling like i was drowning and i couldn't breathe i needed to talk i needed to vent and there wasn't anyone i could talk to.
The past couple of years has been horrible some small bumps some frustrating bad decisions but manageable. He treated successfully for Hepatitis C. But since then it has gone down hill with no brakes.
His girlfriend who 6 years ago was a life saver to him turned to drugs and he thought he could save her. He thought himself a hypocrite if he left her because she was using.
What has come next is almost impossible to write. She did very bad things to attain her drugs. He had been abusing klonopin for his anxiety an ex friend of the girlfriend contacted my boy and told him all of the gory details of gfs activities he is of course crushed somehow ends up shacking up with the whistle blower. Revenge? Probably. That he cant spend one minute alone probably.
Jump forward 2 months he has now completely relapsed, using cocaine lying and stealing he has been suspended twice from work for not showing up. I could go on and on.
My heart is torn open. I am finding it very hard to remember how to separate myself from this. His problems are consuming me morning noon and night. My family is suffering from my distractions. Its not fair to them. Its not fair to me. I supported him when he relapsed with the assumption that he would get back on track using the knowledge that he has acquired over the last 6 years of sobriety. But he hasn't. He lies and apologizes in the same day. I am nack to square one and i need guidance.
Grace
