Two months. Month one, almost down. WHY WHY WHY did I allow this boy to come and stay with me? Why didn't I listen to my gut instinct tell me NO. There's not one particular thing that has happened, and I know why I let him come here- because he has his baby several nights a week and he needs a safe place for his baby to stay. But he is the most pompous, ungrateful, disrespectful person I know. I DO NOT LIKE MY SON. I DO NOT LIKE MY SON. I DO NOT LIKE MY SON. Just this quick- in almost four weeks, I'm at a place - the same place - I was in before 2/2014. I'm at a point where I could cry on a dime. I DIDN'T DO THAT WHEN HE WASN'T LIVING IN MY SPACE. I don't want to come home. I'm actually FURTHER helping his ungrateful ass this week because his alternator is out and I'm taking him to work in the mornings (and his sister picks him up)- for the last two days our ride turns into an argument - because ANYTHING I say- in response to ANYTHING he says is perceived as judgemental, or me telling him something 'like he's a little kid'. Like, from a normal conversation- it turns on a dime. This morning, we are going towards his job- he's scrolling facebook on his phone. chuckle....mom, look at this- at a light he shows me this stupid video of kids of about 13/14 years old carrying on, cussing, etc (now, I'm no angel and can talk crazy in a heartbeat)- I commented that THAT is sad- kids, who are getting attention for that behavior - and why would he show me this? He should know that I wouldn't find that amusing or funny. Then, I'm uptight, I don't like anything he says or shows me, I'm always BLAH BLAH BLAH. So finally (thanks to y'all) I just shut up. Then I was accused of "oh, so now you aren't going to talk to me? See, you are as childish as the kids on that video- why do you even care about those kids on the video"- which means he missed the point COMPLETELY. Why why WHY do I even allow this? I swear on everything, if not for that baby in my car I would have pulled over and put his selfish disrespectful self out of my car and I would have gone on to work. I knew this would happen. I knew. He is who he is. He is not going to change. His tempermant had improved in many ways. I've SEEN HIM WITH MY OWN TWO EYES have a discussion with the baby's mom that was logical, calm, and make sense. I KNOW HE CAN DO IT. But with me? No. I hate I have done this to myself. HATE IT.