Thanks, Steely. It was pretty bad today. It breaks my heart to say but he wrapped a cord around my neck and started to act like he would strangle me. I stopped him. He pushed me down on the floor and kicked me on the shin. I have "F my Mom" (exactly like that) engraved in the wall by a kitchen knife. He stsill agreed to go to his individual counselor. (The one I think/thought was a quack.) So, I go in there with difficult child and start out by asking if he has ANY experience with a kid who has mood cycling. He says yes. So I proceed with- well my son is manic and violent tonight and he has been coming here for 11 mos, everyone is telling me that medications won't take care of it all, this is what my son has done tonight, need I remind you of the court situation and legal situation and his psychiatric hospital stay lsat week, so I think it is time some real issues are dealt with.
difficult child starts saying that he isn't really bipolar, he wants to grow up and be a drug dealer, he doesn't need medications, he's angry with everyone in the world, etc. (I am sure everyone reading this has not read all my previous threads, but these contradict every action that my son has made in the past year.) Then, he says he will tell the judge tomorrow in court that he isn't really bipolar and doesn't need any kind of help- that he has been faking all of this for TWO YEARS. I tried to explain that I didn't blame difficult child for having this problem, but medications alone won't solve it and he HAS to start helping himself. Furthermore, I am more than a little ticked that I am the ONLY ONE paying for defense attny fees, restitution, medication insurance, etc., and he attacks ME??
therapist asked me to leave room, and I did. After about 20 mins they come out. I say I need to ask therapist one quick question so difficult child leaves the area. I asked therapist if my difficult child has been acting this way every time he has come in or if he saw a change like I did. therapist said difficult child is cycling, no he hasn't always acted this way and that difficult child told him he hasn't been taking all his medications because he wants to be able to stay up at night and play his video games. I said difficult child's blood levels have just been checked twice this past week and they are where they should be. He said difficult child told him he knows which medications he needs to take to keep his blood levels at a good place. Then, he said he told difficult child that he strongly suggested that he take his medications tonight and if the judge asks tomorrow, he should tell judge that yes, he does have a problem. He said he told difficult child that he believes he really does have a problem.
I hope this guy is telling me the truth and not covering for difficult child if difficult child has been acting this way for the past 11 mos to him. He damn well better not be faking. And, then I wonder, if psychiatrist is not returning calls because he has been in contact with po or gal and recommended a lock up. psychiatrist doesn't even know about all this- he won't return recent calls. The last call he returned, he was frustrated with me for calling so much.
Why do I feel like I should be posting on the PE forum? (Just because he seems to be having issues more like those over 18 yo.)
I might have to delete this post tomorrow. Why can't I just get more treatment thatn a psychiatrist every 3 weeks (at best) without losing custody? What are they going to do- give custody to my bro. - like that will solve the problem. My bro doesn;t have a clue about this kind of stuff.