I've had the chance to spend a great deal more time with tweedle dum. wm has been coming over to mow the lawn & trim the hedges, clean the garage, etc. He's been, generally, in control. He's been for the most part a "human being". How scary is that? For the first time in 6 years (yup, it's been 6 years) I'm taking wm down to see his grandpa, aunts & uncles. I'm getting into a vehicle alone with my son & traveling almost 6 hours to visit home. wm has been begging to visit grandpa at his home, to see his cousins, aunts & uncles. I finally agreed after much consideration & many discussions with his staff & tdocs. Tdocs believe wm will hold it together because he's so motivated. In the meantime, I have made plans for all possible scenarios. wm's in home therapist will be bring wm over to my house tomorrow morning & we're having a sit down; making sure wm understands my expectations. Letting wm know that if anything at all is off during the drive down 911 will be called & he will be removed from my car. In other words, no dangerous behaviors or rages. Saying all the above, wm has matured so much since January of this year. It's no longer a 6 year old in a 17 year old body. Emotionally he's more 12 or 13. That's huge for him. For the entire team. Like the light bulb finally went off in wm's brain. Keep a good thought tomorrow & this coming weekend ~ I'm a tad nervous being alone with wm for the first time in years. I've planned for the worst but expect the best. Don't think wm has done the same tho.