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<blockquote data-quote="flutterby" data-source="post: 327695" data-attributes="member: 7083"><p>Linda, you are right. I got so angry last night that I felt toxic.</p><p></p><p>I am really struggling with depression. It seems to hit me in waves. Thing is, I'm not so sure that the cause isn't killing me. I have advanced atherosclerosis - autoimmune disorders are linked to that and at a young age. In my mind, not treating the cause just allows the inflammatory process to continue. Atherosclerosis is an inflammatory process. I guess that's why I feel such urgency to figure this out and get treatment beyond rebuilding my strength and managing my fatigue - which I am in the process of doing. If only the place would call me for the appointment. I called them today and they said they would call me back. Still waiting.</p><p></p><p>I'm rambling.</p><p></p><p>I honestly believe that if we don't find the cause and treat it, I won't live beyond another 10 years. There is the pain and fatigue...but mostly, I just feel unwell. Dramatic or not, I feel like I'm slowly dying - which is exactly how I felt before the heart attack. </p><p></p><p>So, yeah, I put it out there. Dramatic, morbid, whatever - it's what I feel in my body. </p><p></p><p>For years with the depression, I prayed - begged - for death. Maybe I'm just finally getting what I wished for.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="flutterby, post: 327695, member: 7083"] Linda, you are right. I got so angry last night that I felt toxic. I am really struggling with depression. It seems to hit me in waves. Thing is, I'm not so sure that the cause isn't killing me. I have advanced atherosclerosis - autoimmune disorders are linked to that and at a young age. In my mind, not treating the cause just allows the inflammatory process to continue. Atherosclerosis is an inflammatory process. I guess that's why I feel such urgency to figure this out and get treatment beyond rebuilding my strength and managing my fatigue - which I am in the process of doing. If only the place would call me for the appointment. I called them today and they said they would call me back. Still waiting. I'm rambling. I honestly believe that if we don't find the cause and treat it, I won't live beyond another 10 years. There is the pain and fatigue...but mostly, I just feel unwell. Dramatic or not, I feel like I'm slowly dying - which is exactly how I felt before the heart attack. So, yeah, I put it out there. Dramatic, morbid, whatever - it's what I feel in my body. For years with the depression, I prayed - begged - for death. Maybe I'm just finally getting what I wished for. [/QUOTE]
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