mog
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I have been so depressed lately that I get up ,take difficult child to summer school (after a huge fight and him cursing at me every name in the book) , come home and go back to bed until I have to pick him up at 12:30-1:00 and on days he does not have to go to school I sometimes sleep until 7:00 PM. I feel like there is no reason for me to get up in the morning.
difficult child is back with his girlfriend and when he knows he can spend time with her he works hard to earn the privledge BUT it is a nightmare when he knows that he can't see her like if she has plans or something. He is going threw the typical hormonal stuff that all 16 age kids go threw BUT with the bipolar on top it is hard some times.
Even though difficult child is still taking everything out on me, I am happy to report that difficult child and bilogical easy child have been repairing their relationship even though they both will deny it to greatest lengths (like it is a bad thing to have a good relationship with your siblings)
unfortunately, both "easy child" (ha ha) step children are still slandering me all over both towns and still neither will even have an conversation with me. when husband calls oldest easy child he has to ask for her to talk to me and it is short as possible. By the way, I have issues with her now --she is pregnant with my nephews child and is living with my sister and all of them are mooching of my parents which has destroyed my relationship with my mother whom I was very close to until now. People keep telling me that it is not an issue because they are not BLOOD but I feel differently since they were raised like cousins.
I get mad because husband will text both of my step kids (which by the way I never called them "step" until now) and even talk to them and won't even tell me how they are or anything that is going on with them even though I am the one that will ask for him to check on them.
Step son has been gone for a year becasue he wanted to "hang out" with his girlfriend but would not do any chores in order to earn the privlegde so started sneaking out. even "took" oldest kids car in the middle of the night to go to a party without permission. So he thought he would move out and mooch off some one else, but when they got tired of his attitude they threw him out and went from "our" friends all over town and destroyed our friendships and got kicked out of everywhere even both biological grandparents . I don't know where he is or is if he's ok since husband won't tell me.
husband and I are hardly even speaking and usually end up in an argument about the stupidest things. He has such an attitude about any little thing I ask him to do for difficult child which upsets me because to remind everyone when my "step" daughter broke both femurs, I stayed with her day and night for surgery for a week and almost lost my job to take care of her and even after she came home my easy child took care of her (she was is wheelchair and needed help to even go to the bathroom. (side note--step had the nerve to tell some one else later that she thought easy child was gay because she touched her in private parts---HELLO !! She had to take her to the bathroom and help her shower--she was trying to make sure she didn't fall down and break something else!!!!) Our MST therapist has tried to address some issues but he just walks out.
difficult child told me the other day he wishes I was dead.
With all of the other stuff with the family, I wonder why I haven't already killed myself.
MY biological difficult child just graduated and I am so happy and proud of her but lately she has teenageritis and lately her ears don't work at all. Than when I have to redirect her she gives me an attitude.
I have NEVER felt so alone in all my life. I have no one to talk to --sorry I dumped it all here. Oh well I feel like no one will even read all of the nightmare anyway
difficult child is back with his girlfriend and when he knows he can spend time with her he works hard to earn the privledge BUT it is a nightmare when he knows that he can't see her like if she has plans or something. He is going threw the typical hormonal stuff that all 16 age kids go threw BUT with the bipolar on top it is hard some times.
Even though difficult child is still taking everything out on me, I am happy to report that difficult child and bilogical easy child have been repairing their relationship even though they both will deny it to greatest lengths (like it is a bad thing to have a good relationship with your siblings)
unfortunately, both "easy child" (ha ha) step children are still slandering me all over both towns and still neither will even have an conversation with me. when husband calls oldest easy child he has to ask for her to talk to me and it is short as possible. By the way, I have issues with her now --she is pregnant with my nephews child and is living with my sister and all of them are mooching of my parents which has destroyed my relationship with my mother whom I was very close to until now. People keep telling me that it is not an issue because they are not BLOOD but I feel differently since they were raised like cousins.
I get mad because husband will text both of my step kids (which by the way I never called them "step" until now) and even talk to them and won't even tell me how they are or anything that is going on with them even though I am the one that will ask for him to check on them.
Step son has been gone for a year becasue he wanted to "hang out" with his girlfriend but would not do any chores in order to earn the privlegde so started sneaking out. even "took" oldest kids car in the middle of the night to go to a party without permission. So he thought he would move out and mooch off some one else, but when they got tired of his attitude they threw him out and went from "our" friends all over town and destroyed our friendships and got kicked out of everywhere even both biological grandparents . I don't know where he is or is if he's ok since husband won't tell me.
husband and I are hardly even speaking and usually end up in an argument about the stupidest things. He has such an attitude about any little thing I ask him to do for difficult child which upsets me because to remind everyone when my "step" daughter broke both femurs, I stayed with her day and night for surgery for a week and almost lost my job to take care of her and even after she came home my easy child took care of her (she was is wheelchair and needed help to even go to the bathroom. (side note--step had the nerve to tell some one else later that she thought easy child was gay because she touched her in private parts---HELLO !! She had to take her to the bathroom and help her shower--she was trying to make sure she didn't fall down and break something else!!!!) Our MST therapist has tried to address some issues but he just walks out.
difficult child told me the other day he wishes I was dead.
With all of the other stuff with the family, I wonder why I haven't already killed myself.MY biological difficult child just graduated and I am so happy and proud of her but lately she has teenageritis and lately her ears don't work at all. Than when I have to redirect her she gives me an attitude.
I have NEVER felt so alone in all my life. I have no one to talk to --sorry I dumped it all here. Oh well I feel like no one will even read all of the nightmare anyway
