Having a hard time, I mean REALLY hard, getting into the holiday spirit. Seems like we're finally near the end of the road; DS17 is just a year away from "adulthood", back from foster care, on medications...but still on probation. He did fail every.single.class at community college this fall, and has run a few bank accounts into negative numbers. Still have to deal with those things I suppose. I felt this coming the first of December. TG was okay, but then...pphhhtttt. So I planned a party, it was this past Monday. Got busy with that, shopping, baking, decorating. The party was great, had about 25 people here, good food, good wine! Now...pphhhttttt. I guess maybe I held it together for so long and now I can't? Or don't want to? Oh, I'm still doing what HAS to be done, but my heart's not in it...I don't care, or don't "feel" like doing much at all. So what's up with this?