My apologies are becuz I have not been here in awhile. I have had a hard time lately getting the internet from my college daughter, LOL and my teen son, and my husband.and my difficult child! (she is prolly the worst one about takeing a turn, of course) And anyway, I just have been very busy TRYING so hard to make up for lost time, the years and years my home was neglected SO bad due to me working the 20 hours days, and then my sick years.....not just major projects got neglected, but even all normal routine every day chores, and it is VERY time intense, labor intense and sometimes tedious trying to restore order. But in order to make room and be ready for PCs new baby, I have been working super hard.....so I have not been online. So, I have missed LOTS here. Thankfully, my own difficult child has been relatively "stable" and things have been status quo. (knock on wood) Even more thankfully, my husband is also relatively calm these days, for the most part. Mostly, these days, we all just kinda let him "do his own thing" - mostly that means just letting him play video games 24-7 and he basically lives in videogame land.....he is not rreally part of real life at all, ever. BUT he IS calm that way....<shrug> So, difficult child is calm, mostly.....and easy child is getting absolutely HUGE> she is feeling some better, but, heck, nearly anything would have been an improvement. Sure seems to me on the young girls, they seem to have more pronounced "bumps" I don't know. Her first semester of college is coming to an end, and no matter how she does on her final exams next week, I am so excited, she got straight As. And she has her schedule for next semester all registered etc. We have settled on a date for her baby shower, me and difficult child are throwing it......we are haveing it at our local VFW, LOL cuz our house is simpy far far too small. It will be in Jan, and it is so wild.....I am a chatterbox, and when I am out and about doing errands, I chatter to anyone and everyone. I befriend waitresses, store clerks, even the ppl in gas station etc? They ALL keep saying they want to come to the shower! Even the MALES! I have never given any type of party or gathering before.....but.....yup- I am letting them ALL come.....remains to be seen who will really show up.....Funny, it is the same date, the baby shower- as the father to bes birthday......and it is also MY 21 wedding anniversary! ROFL..... easy child and father to be are working hard learning how to be a little family, with LOTS of help from us here...while we try hard to create a small apartment in my basement for them. (working from scratch on a very tight budget) Sure, they have some adjustments, compromises to learn, blending families, our family and his.....the normal stuff.....the ups and downs.they seem to be hanging in OK.....but, we got some devastating news this week. Father to bes best friend just got deployed with Marines to Afghanistan.....and his mom was diagnosis'ed with cancer this week.and she told father to be she is declining treatment. His parents recently divorced.....he has 2 brothers, one is deployed and one is here at home....all 3 boys are in their early 20s....and their mom on top of the cancer has been battleing mental illness herself. The boys are haveing a hard time knowing what to do, how to do it......and they are feeling the stress. AND father to bes mom has so far refused to even acknowledge the new baby to be. (thankfully, PCs bfs father is excited and trying to be supportive of the new young family to be) MY son is same as always...he is SO laid back, way too witty and bright for his own good....still homeschooling with me....easy child has been wanting to help with the homeschooling......and she has had him doing HER college work side by side with her! (she is a far stricter teacher than I) My goodness this son of mine, he is 13? YIKES he has grown so much this past 12 months, it is mind boggling, really! My girls are both considerably shorter than me, but my son is now my height. (5'8") My difficult child is heaviest.....((I tend to think years of medications contributed to some of that, not all, but some) but my son is a string bean. So, last week, we decided to have a studio portrait done.......in our everyday attire (for a change) included PCs boyfriend in our "family" shot....OMG I have to say, I think we had the BEST photographer in the world! We have some amazing and very FUN shots.....and yes......the photographer asked to come to shower, too! LOL----plus she waits tables on the side,, and asked us to come see her where she waits tables...plus she is a preschool teacher. LOL. She made us look wonderful and fun in the pictures, but she also got some very amazing wonderful sensitive, tender shots.....like PCs boyfriend resting his head on PCs tummy.....and I do not know HOW but, some of me and husband where we look every biit as in deep love as 21 years ago....and my not living in this world husband? she managed to somehow get some shots of me and him......they are VERY playful,, very funny. She was just the most incredible photographer I have EVER seen, anywwhere. So we have some wonderful photos--and if easy child will help me I hope eventually to get them online so I can share them with you. (I cannot do it myself cuz I am still useing my trusty ancient beloved webtv, LOL) SO- I apologize I have not been here......and we have so much excitement going on here at home these days. Sending you all good thoughts and best wishes.