Last time I wrote I spoke about us deciding to let my difficult child move to his dads and how I'm dealing with that. He left 3 weeks ago now, I miss him terribly. He goes there for the summer, so the longest I've been away from him is 9 weeks total. I talk to him almost every night. But he is doing well, with expeption of the first day there, it's been smooth. He's already seen a psychiatrist and therapist, his dad is spending alot of quality time with him, talking, and re-enforcing their relationship. School is doing good too I think. he's made some friends and says he likes it. His new psychiatrist, stopped his Risperdal due to urinated the bed and he told us that it does the basic same stuff as the zoloft, he agreed with- the hospital that he doens't has the adhd thing, but more anxiety and bipolar. I am hoping maybe to take him off the zoloft as well and doing more a mood disorder thing, not sure what, but the risperdal was not doing anything positive for him and it was causing more side effects. So this is hard. I think that taking him off the medications and maybe starting fresh is a good idea. Then last week my husband and I decided to seperate for now. Our relationship if falling apart We have the same arguement and complaints but each feel it's the other one doing it. So the stress is just horrible. I've began having panic attacks again, really bad. But he's moved out and it's a little easier. We are talking on the phone and I have seen him one time, which was pleasant. I am on here to just ask for prayers that we make the right decisions for all the kids and ourselves! You guys are all so supportive and I read the posts here daily just for the simple fact some people are going through the same things. I also wanted to add my husband was ordered by a court (I filed for a custody order) to do a alcohol evaluation. which he did, I'm so happy he did, even though it was forced and he is doing outpatient rehab 2 times a week and therapy 1 on 1 one time a week. And I made an appointment. with- a counseler just for myself every 2 weeks. That can't hurt.