NOLA
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Wish I had some good news to report since I last checked in but that is for another day. Just to refresh your memory, our difficult child stole $300 from us, decided to drop out of school & ran away on August 17th (the Friday before he was to begin boarding school.) I wanted to attach the letter he left so you can get a feel for who he is at present but I couldn't figure out how - I'll be happy to email you it if you have time to read it. Since that time hes called home 3 times. First time for about 30 secs, 2nd time called on husbands birthday - husband told him boarding school was no longer an option & they could talk to the PO and probably work something out about it so not to worry about jail, he should just come home. That didnt work. :thumbsdown: He called last week for the 3rd time for another 30 secs he basically just says hi and lets us know hes doing fine pretty much acts like it's perfectly normal for a 16 year old to be out on his own and we have absolutely nothing to worry about. Wont say where is he is or when hes coming home - he just says he doesnt want to go to boarding school or jail.
Now that we are approaching the 2 month mark I find myself once again seriously doubting our response. We reported the theft and runaway to the police & his probation officer immediately but havent called his friends or made any attempt at finding him. I guess mainly because we had hoped by now he would have come to his senses and made a conscience decision on his own that he is heading down the wrong path. Once again he has proven us wrong. :hammer:
I totally agree that we cant force change on him and only have control over our own actions but Im struggling with what is our real responsibility as parents. Yes, this is the 5th time he's run away but he's never been gone for more than 5 days before. Twice he came back on his own before we could find him & twice we found him. I just cant stop thinking like it sends him the message that we dont care enough to track him down and reel him in even if he doesnt like it so what? Also, I guess Im starting to have this sickening feeling that he is never coming home. He is on probation till his 18th birthday so in his mind Im thinking hell be on the run at least till then and that is a long way off. I worry that if we dont force the issue that in a way we are still enabling him to continue drugs (I'm certain he's smoking weed at the minimum), forget about school, etc. Its almost like either way you look at it we are still failing him. Im at a total loss and really dont know which way to turn. Any insight you can offer will certainly help.
I hope one day, if and when Im ever clear-headed enough, to help someone else on this board and not just always be on the receiving end.
<span style="color: #CC0000">Youth fades; love droops, the leaves of friendship fall; a mother's secret hope outlives them all. -- Oliver Wendell Holmes</span>
Now that we are approaching the 2 month mark I find myself once again seriously doubting our response. We reported the theft and runaway to the police & his probation officer immediately but havent called his friends or made any attempt at finding him. I guess mainly because we had hoped by now he would have come to his senses and made a conscience decision on his own that he is heading down the wrong path. Once again he has proven us wrong. :hammer:
I totally agree that we cant force change on him and only have control over our own actions but Im struggling with what is our real responsibility as parents. Yes, this is the 5th time he's run away but he's never been gone for more than 5 days before. Twice he came back on his own before we could find him & twice we found him. I just cant stop thinking like it sends him the message that we dont care enough to track him down and reel him in even if he doesnt like it so what? Also, I guess Im starting to have this sickening feeling that he is never coming home. He is on probation till his 18th birthday so in his mind Im thinking hell be on the run at least till then and that is a long way off. I worry that if we dont force the issue that in a way we are still enabling him to continue drugs (I'm certain he's smoking weed at the minimum), forget about school, etc. Its almost like either way you look at it we are still failing him. Im at a total loss and really dont know which way to turn. Any insight you can offer will certainly help.
I hope one day, if and when Im ever clear-headed enough, to help someone else on this board and not just always be on the receiving end.
<span style="color: #CC0000">Youth fades; love droops, the leaves of friendship fall; a mother's secret hope outlives them all. -- Oliver Wendell Holmes</span>