I think you're awesome, Abbey. Please keep honoring your instincts and feelings and never let a man, or anyone, bring you down. Forgiveness is a gift we give ourselves. But it doesn't mean allowing people do keep hurting us. If someone is truly sorry and makes amends that's one thing. But if they hurt us deeply it takes time, a lot of time frankly, for them to regain our trust. Thinking of you, ML