It really means a lot to know you thought of me. I am really going through a very difficult time. Not much has changed since last post. Still scared, still upset. Panicing feeling. Blood pressure is very high. Scary. Serious issues going on with difficult child and school. Too. As well as everything else that could happen. I DO have a computer at home now. I haven't been on because I cannot deal with myself and things going on with me. I certainly wouldn't be of any use to anyone else. couldn't offer any advice or even any comments at this time. I had been looking for a second job on my days off. Not especially at this time now that things are so out of control. But, I was offered a position and I took it. So, I now work 7 days a week. The job is working with the school district food services as a sub at the schools for lunch. Four hours a day, what ever school needs me. No work on days off, and summer. I had to take it. I'll update sometime on what I have found going on in the kitchens of our schools. I am very glad my son eats a bag of chips and juice everyday! Even as I write, my heart is pounding so hard I think you can see it. Thank you again for your thoughts.. It REALLY does comfort me to know someone cares. I will get back soon I hope. TEN days of school left. Hoping atleast a small portion of this stress will subside then.