difficult child just called from some stranger's cell phone in a panic. He said he got kicked out of his friends house because they said he's untrustworthy. Hmmm untrustworthy? Sadly not surprised. Anyway, he said he had no where to go and could I ask my husband to come pick him up in PA 2 hours away. I told him no and what he needs to do is find a shelter ASAP and tomorrow i can call the CMO and we can figure out how to help him then. He said they won't take him at the one shelter without ID and can he please come home. I said no you can't come home but I will do whatever I can to get you the help you need. He called me a f***ing bi*ch and hung up on me. After that I made some calls and found one emergency shelter that will take him without ID. I called the original shelter that wouldn't take him and they said they would try to help him get to the other shelter if he showed up there again. I can't, literally CAN NOT take this anymore. Im a mess. As much as I try to detach this literally consumes my life every second of every day. The worrying, the sadness, the guilt. I hate waking up everyday because it never ends. I hope he makes it to a shelter. It's so cold tonight. Am I a bad person for not allowing him to come home? I feel like the worst person ever. My heart is breaking.