Things are still not well at all. In fact, she is in rare gift from god form where she has completely shut down against me and is in full bully mode. Every day I get called names, screamed at, so on and so on. A few weeks ago the neighbors called the cops on us. I truly believe, or I want to believe, they called the cops because they heard her screaming in my face saying "I'm going to kick your a** b*tch!!!" repeatedly over and over again. I am making my plan to escape very soon, it's in the works. It's really hard to accept the fact that I have to leave my own home, move and start over just to get away from her. I am so traumatized by all the abuse. I know I barely say anything here on the boards anymore, but how many times can I talk about it? My difficult child has said some very horrible, horrible things to me, almost on a daily basis sometimes. One thing she always throws in my face is my past sexual abuse as a child. She mocks me for it. I just don't know if I can ever forgive her.