We have been married 25 years. And never, in our whole entire marriage, have we ever been this broke. I worry that we may lose our home - soon. Partly, this is due to economic conditions in our fine state. Partly, it is that hubby lost his job in January. Partly it is due to the fact that his mental illness precludes him from jumping back into the job market. He has been having a really hard time with this. Partly, I think this is a pride issue for him. We live in an affluent town. We have affluent friends. We are feeling a little outside of the loop. I also think this is the 'death of a dream'. Neither of us foresaw this financial insecurity as a possibility. I hate not being able to do stuff for my (adult) kids. I wish I could buy my granddaughter a tricycle. Wish we could go out for dinner and a movie once in a while. Wish I didn't have to think to myself - I can't make that for dinner because I can't afford the ingredients. Hubby had a 'moment' today on the way home from church. He wanted to stop and get Subway sandwiches. I told him (as gently as I could muster) that after paying the bills yesterday, we just didn't have the money. Not even $5.00. He's in a deep funk. Came home and went straight to bed. Sigh. I on the other hand, came home and made a tuna sandwich on toast - and had some kool-aid. I chose to be thankful for what I did have. It sure beat hunger. I think getting through such lean times well is a choice. At the end of the day, when I lay my head down, I try to be thankful that I had 3 meals, clean clothes and a roof over my head. For those of you who are living lean, how do you cope? Or does it get you really down - like it does my husband? Thanks for listening. It helps to be heard.