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<blockquote data-quote="toughlovin" data-source="post: 549719"><p>So last week when I heard that my son had walked away from the program, one that was really great for him, I just finally felt like "I give up". It kind of bothered me to give up because I have this voice in my head that says "NEVER give up" and that message is especially strong in "NEVER give up on your child".... so although in a way giving up felt kind of freeing, it also felt like I was doing something kind of wrong.</p><p></p><p>I went to an alanon meeting and it really gave me some clarity. I realized today that I still believe my son has the ability to turn his life around if he really wants to. I am not giving up that belief. I dont think I am even giving up hope that someday he may do that. </p><p></p><p>What I am doing is giving up the belief that I can fix him, help him, change him in any way. I have finally come to the point where I no longer believe I can do any of those things... and that is freeing in a way... because it means I also give up the responsibility for his success (or failure), give up the expectation that something i do will finally be the turning point. For me this is the real turning point of really letting go.... to let go I had to give up.</p><p></p><p>And you know what I am really doing ok most of the time. I am sleeping ok..... am still feeling relaxed from our trip, enjoying being home and am having some happy moments. I am still worried about him, still think about him a lot but i am not obsessed and that feels good!!!</p><p></p><p>So thought I would share..... oh and I heard from his probation officer today. They have put out a warrant for his arrest for violating his probation. They probably wont go after him so it may not matter unless he comes back into this state but then it will matter!!!</p><p></p><p>I had to laugh to myself as she told me she felt bad because he really is a good kid!!! He has obviously been charming to her AND she probably sees a lot lot worse. If he goes back to treatment she will remove the warrant. So we shall see what happens, but it is not up to me at all.</p><p></p><p>TL</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="toughlovin, post: 549719"] So last week when I heard that my son had walked away from the program, one that was really great for him, I just finally felt like "I give up". It kind of bothered me to give up because I have this voice in my head that says "NEVER give up" and that message is especially strong in "NEVER give up on your child".... so although in a way giving up felt kind of freeing, it also felt like I was doing something kind of wrong. I went to an alanon meeting and it really gave me some clarity. I realized today that I still believe my son has the ability to turn his life around if he really wants to. I am not giving up that belief. I dont think I am even giving up hope that someday he may do that. What I am doing is giving up the belief that I can fix him, help him, change him in any way. I have finally come to the point where I no longer believe I can do any of those things... and that is freeing in a way... because it means I also give up the responsibility for his success (or failure), give up the expectation that something i do will finally be the turning point. For me this is the real turning point of really letting go.... to let go I had to give up. And you know what I am really doing ok most of the time. I am sleeping ok..... am still feeling relaxed from our trip, enjoying being home and am having some happy moments. I am still worried about him, still think about him a lot but i am not obsessed and that feels good!!! So thought I would share..... oh and I heard from his probation officer today. They have put out a warrant for his arrest for violating his probation. They probably wont go after him so it may not matter unless he comes back into this state but then it will matter!!! I had to laugh to myself as she told me she felt bad because he really is a good kid!!! He has obviously been charming to her AND she probably sees a lot lot worse. If he goes back to treatment she will remove the warrant. So we shall see what happens, but it is not up to me at all. TL [/QUOTE]
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