He's taking his medications
he's displaying some paranoid behavior.
I left a message for the MHA worker
The other problem is that he binge eats
So it's day by day but I'm learning to stay strong and be calm. One day at a time.
It is so hard to be strong, JKF. You are handling everything very well. It is sad to see our children confused and in pain. Though I continue to do those things which might help? I also find Recovering's imagery of putting my child (and myself sometimes too, if the day has been especially hard) in the palm of a higher, spiritual power's hands. God's hands, but I don't know your belief system, and don't want to offend. This imagery has helped me when I literally don't know what else to do or how to think about what is happening.
How does that quote go? Something like, "For this surcease, much thanks; for 'tis bitter cold, and I am sick at heart." Maybe Witz will know which play that is from. The sentiment behind it speaks to just what this feels like and it comforts me, sometimes. I hope it helps you, too.
I am glad you called the MH worker. Your son's medications need to be adjusted. Maybe that is why he couldn't stay in the group setting he was in. How strange that someone did not think to assess him for that, before they tossed him out. Grrr....
If difficult child is bingeing to numb out, would it help to find him some kind of masculine workout tape? Or, maybe, something like crochet, or beading, or one of those leather-working kits? Or maybe paper and paint or colored pencils? Maybe, a harmonica or an old guitar?
I don't know what I would do with myself either, if I were stuck in a hotel room for two weeks.
Wishing you well, JKF, and sending strength. You are an amazing mom. Your son is so fortunate, to have you in his corner.
Barbara