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<blockquote data-quote="Hound dog" data-source="post: 421556" data-attributes="member: 84"><p>3D seven years out, I most certainly hoped I'd be closer to pre-accident than I am. While I'm happy with the progress I've made and it's been a alot.......yeah, no where near pre-accident. </p><p></p><p>I had planned to take the state boards until money once again became an In Your Face Issue. Then it was like do I risk tossing out the money or not? It's a good amount of money. I have the money....my mom gave it to me forever ago and easy child has been holding it in her house safe. Still it rubs me the wrong way to risk money like that when I'm in survival mode. But I've talked with husband more......talked to my girls more.......read responses here too. And since husband has no issue with the risk........I'll go a head and study, schedule, and see what happens via passing. I'm not sure if they will modify the exam. The state refused to modify the exam for Travis for the computer tech. But if it's laid out the way the practice exam questions are...it shouldn't be too bad. Money was my main issue there</p><p></p><p>I do thank you all for giving me ideas of areas to check in to work other than actual nursing........and people to go and talk to. I'd not thought of those options myself and they're great ideas. And I'll check them out. Thanks! </p><p>Suz, I thought that too. Or rather I'd hoped that would be the case. The brain shut down in clinical was the deal breaker for me. It wasn't anxiety, it wasn't panic. I can't explain it well with words because I really don't understand it well myself. That is not the first time it's happened post accident, and I know it won't be the last. Although that time it was much more severe than I've had before. Usually when it hits I'm thinking to myself why the heck won't my brain work at least. I've had it happen at home. I've had it happen in the classroom. But this one.....there was no thought process going on behind the eyes at all. It was totally blank. No emotion either.....when normally it will tick me off or scare me to the point I'll disengage from the situation until it passes. I had trouble speaking and writing because I couldn't keep a link of thought going long enough. It lasted 8 hours.....I still don't know how I made it to my car. And once there I had to sit there for 20-30 mins hoping it would pass enough for me to drive the hour home. I didn't fully recover until the next day.....which I skipped clinical as I was scared to death it would happen again. To finish my clinical hours I returned to an environment that was familiar with no incident. Stress triggered that one I think. Stress often does. But I'm not sure as other times during clinical assignments were switched and I'd find myself in totally unexpected situations.....and brain shut down would only last a few minutes, long enough I could "fake" it until it kicked back in again, as long as no one engaged me. Sometimes multi tasking will also trigger it. Being given too many things to do at once I go blank. Nuthin there. phht </p><p></p><p>When I have insurance again.........and this has motivated husband to do those d*mn medicaid forms finally......I hope to go to a good neuro and neuropsychologist and get this evaled once and for all. The head injury was missed with the accident. A CAT scan was done to make sure there were no bleeds ect......The orthopedist was the one who discovered the huge compression fracture in the back of my skull. And he explained CAT scan won't pick that up....it's actually hard to see a compression fracture of the skull. I was a good 3 yrs out before I had the presence of mind to think Gee, maybe it would be a good idea to have a MRI done to assess damage.........But by then we were having insurance issues. </p><p></p><p>So I'm pretty certain I won't risk working with patients in the typical form. My conscience won't let me do it no matter how bad I need the money. But like you all said, there may be many other options out there to choose from that don't involve putting patients at risk. I'm going to have to look into those.</p><p></p><p>I went to bed feeling pretty bummed last night. Like I said, this stuff is not so easy for me to admit. But reading your responses has given me some hope that I can still put my schooling to good use. I've just got to find it. Much better than thinking I'd spent 30,000.00 on brain therapy instead of something I could use as a career.</p><p></p><p>Thanks!!!!!</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Hound dog, post: 421556, member: 84"] 3D seven years out, I most certainly hoped I'd be closer to pre-accident than I am. While I'm happy with the progress I've made and it's been a alot.......yeah, no where near pre-accident. I had planned to take the state boards until money once again became an In Your Face Issue. Then it was like do I risk tossing out the money or not? It's a good amount of money. I have the money....my mom gave it to me forever ago and easy child has been holding it in her house safe. Still it rubs me the wrong way to risk money like that when I'm in survival mode. But I've talked with husband more......talked to my girls more.......read responses here too. And since husband has no issue with the risk........I'll go a head and study, schedule, and see what happens via passing. I'm not sure if they will modify the exam. The state refused to modify the exam for Travis for the computer tech. But if it's laid out the way the practice exam questions are...it shouldn't be too bad. Money was my main issue there I do thank you all for giving me ideas of areas to check in to work other than actual nursing........and people to go and talk to. I'd not thought of those options myself and they're great ideas. And I'll check them out. Thanks! Suz, I thought that too. Or rather I'd hoped that would be the case. The brain shut down in clinical was the deal breaker for me. It wasn't anxiety, it wasn't panic. I can't explain it well with words because I really don't understand it well myself. That is not the first time it's happened post accident, and I know it won't be the last. Although that time it was much more severe than I've had before. Usually when it hits I'm thinking to myself why the heck won't my brain work at least. I've had it happen at home. I've had it happen in the classroom. But this one.....there was no thought process going on behind the eyes at all. It was totally blank. No emotion either.....when normally it will tick me off or scare me to the point I'll disengage from the situation until it passes. I had trouble speaking and writing because I couldn't keep a link of thought going long enough. It lasted 8 hours.....I still don't know how I made it to my car. And once there I had to sit there for 20-30 mins hoping it would pass enough for me to drive the hour home. I didn't fully recover until the next day.....which I skipped clinical as I was scared to death it would happen again. To finish my clinical hours I returned to an environment that was familiar with no incident. Stress triggered that one I think. Stress often does. But I'm not sure as other times during clinical assignments were switched and I'd find myself in totally unexpected situations.....and brain shut down would only last a few minutes, long enough I could "fake" it until it kicked back in again, as long as no one engaged me. Sometimes multi tasking will also trigger it. Being given too many things to do at once I go blank. Nuthin there. phht When I have insurance again.........and this has motivated husband to do those d*mn medicaid forms finally......I hope to go to a good neuro and neuropsychologist and get this evaled once and for all. The head injury was missed with the accident. A CAT scan was done to make sure there were no bleeds ect......The orthopedist was the one who discovered the huge compression fracture in the back of my skull. And he explained CAT scan won't pick that up....it's actually hard to see a compression fracture of the skull. I was a good 3 yrs out before I had the presence of mind to think Gee, maybe it would be a good idea to have a MRI done to assess damage.........But by then we were having insurance issues. So I'm pretty certain I won't risk working with patients in the typical form. My conscience won't let me do it no matter how bad I need the money. But like you all said, there may be many other options out there to choose from that don't involve putting patients at risk. I'm going to have to look into those. I went to bed feeling pretty bummed last night. Like I said, this stuff is not so easy for me to admit. But reading your responses has given me some hope that I can still put my schooling to good use. I've just got to find it. Much better than thinking I'd spent 30,000.00 on brain therapy instead of something I could use as a career. Thanks!!!!! [/QUOTE]
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