Hello all! I am new to this site and new to forums all together Hello all! I am new to this site and new to forums all together. My 7 year old son had been diagnosed with ADHD I have had him evaluated twice just for my own peace of mind. My son has SO much trouble at school and its starting to break me down. Kindergarten was terrible and now 1st grade has been trouble. I really did not want to put my son on medication but because his school was constantly calling me because he was in trouble I decided it was time. I have him on Focalin XR 10 mg tabs and for the most part they seem to help. However he is still constantly in trouble and now I am noticing hes more defiant and emotional at home. I am seeing tantrums, disrespecting adults and outbursts. My son was an only child up until 9 months ago so I never have had issues with him at home like school was reporting. Now I am starting to see it at home and I am feeling like Im losing this uphill battle. I cant help but get sad and worked up as if I failed as a parent. I know I can not waste time feeling sorry for myself but I feel like Im constantly losing this battle. My son isnt sleeping well and hes getting out of control. I am trying to be patient with him since I know these outbursts are sometimes beyond his control. My son is such a good sweet boy hes not mean, or ugly he loves me with all his might and of course I feel the same. My son has started to have meltdowns where he will say things like its so hard to be good or Im trying so hard mom I really am and when I have to get after him for another trip to the principals office he completely breaks down and I can hear him say I dont love him or care about him when thats completely untrue. I always reassure him I love him NO MATTER WHAT and that hes not a bad by just makes bad choices. I cant help but feel like the school he goes to refuses to be of any help. I feel like they all but forced the idea of medicine on me. Surely my son isnt the only kid with ADHD there . Any advice or help would be so great! Thanks for listening.