Hi all, **I slightly changed my username...just FYI** I'm trying to find my way in the new reality here. Spent some time cleaning out difficult child's room. Part of me is angry at him. Part of me feels sorry for him. Neither part has contacted him nor heard from him since I dropped him off at the sober house on Friday. All parts agree he is a rude and selfish - and has much to learn. I'm certain I will hear from him soon - cause he will want something. Sigh... It is a struggle to decide what to keep and what to pass on. Will these be things he needs later? I can't expect him to take everything now. But I can slowly move things into a spare closet and work towards turning his room into a spare room. As a side note....I had a consult with a dietician last week. I'm going to improve my eating and exercise. I go back next week to get test results and discuss what's next. They actually have someone who will help me learn to weight train and design a plan for me. There is a behaviorist on staff who does weekly classes. The hard part is this place is where difficult child is - two hours away but it is a marvelous place. I'm excited but a bit fearful I might not be able to stick with it. From that standpoint, I understand what difficult child is facing...know what I mean? It's something I could just buy a few Lean Cuisines and walk more - do it on my own - but after everything that has been happening, part of me says I deserve to put myself first and get all the support I can find. Am thinking of moving my clothes which are too small into difficult child's old closet as an incentive. Plus that room has some floor space and a tv so I can easily do yoga there. Trying to turn negatives into positives. It's one step forward, sometimes two....but without him around, I find myself taking far fewer steps backward.