Ok here's the situation. I am going 3 days a week, Mon, Wed and Thursday from 3:30- 8:30, it's and hour and a half away so I leave at 2 and get home at 10. During the time I'm there, there are groups and workshops, we eat dinner, and at some point over the week I have an hour of therapy, another hour of a family sesion (over the phone) and I also meet with the dietician and the doctor. I am annoyed because this past week the dr was on vacation and I need medication for anxiety. This is more difficult than I thought it would be.
I had the family session the first day I was there, which was good because I need to tell husband I was taking off from work. He knew i was taking off that day, but not that I was not going to be off for awhile. I do have insurance to protect my paycheck, but it's a little less than what I make. He actually still thought I was going to work tomorrow and I told him that I was not going this week either.But really, I can't put a time limit on it, because I need to be feeling a little better, I work with kids and need all my energy and all my wits about me. The family session has only been with husband.
The therapy session was interesting, the dietician came into it and they scared me and disturbed me. They said I should be in the hospital at this weight, so I had better fix it.
The worst part was the dinner. There are people there all shapes and sizes and we all eat the same thing, and we have to eat everything. Wednesday I cried. I ate my supplement, which was a Cliff bar, then the had a giagantic plate of lasagna- in an alfredo sauce-and a piece of cheesecake and an apple! I ate the lasagna and I started to cry. The Cliff bar would have been enough and why would I get that upset to cry over cheesecake. Clearly I'm far from where I want to be.
It was a nightmare for me, I don't eat like that. I am really annoyed even now that I ate that. Anyway, I did get the meal plan. I'm doing better than I had been, I am eating peanut butter and more of a variety of proteins, starches and milk exchanges. Ther are things I haven't eaten in awhile and it feels good. But I do know that I am not eating the proper amount. I feel like I'm having bad anxiety and never do this without medication. I need to see the doctor, I'm sure I haven't gained a lot, if anything, but I think I can do it. So, that's my update! I'll update again soon.