Hi everyone. I have been checking in randomly reading the board. I haven't been actually logging in. I want you all to know I'm keeping up with you all. I don't have much in the way of spare resources with which to offer support at the moment. Things should improve after this week ahead and I'll be glad to be back with you all. My fathers sentencing is this coming Thursday. S/O and I head out of town Wed. and will return Friday. I am busily correcting grammar and wording of my victim impact statement and I am finding that tough. I am not good at public speaking and in such a nerve wracking environment I imagine it will be harder than normal. I really hope to be able to read it myself. The crown attorney can and will take over reading it out for me if I am unable which is helpful to know. My aunt will be giving her impact statement as well. My former step sister has informed the court she cannot attend due to PTSD issues. I hope she was able, for herself, send a impact statement. I truly believe it is a huge step in healing. If she doesn't that is okay obviously. I just hope she doesn't regret it later whih is all that matters. I don't know about anybody else. I'll see firsthand this week I guess. I was notified yesterday that the minimum penitentiary time asked for is now raised to four years. The judge may decide that isn't enough and I am Hoping he increases the sentence. The paperwork is formally submitted for the guilty plea to all charges. I feel relieved as there is much speculation that he may take matters into his own hands and "check out" so to speak, rather than accept incarceration in a federal facility. He has never down serious jail time and never a federal Facility. He is mid 60's and health isn't great. He isn't a fighter and I'm Sure he knows defending himself, even in protective custody, won't be easy. Especially since his kind are te most loathed in the prison system and are actively targeted once inmates Know a persons convictions are sexual in nature against children. If he does turn up with a pulse, there is some sort of plan afoot that involves asking him to name and accept responsibility for his lifetime of victims. This would give him a promise to not charge him for those offenses but would offer his acceptance of guilt to other victims that he is not under charges for. We shall see. We are hoping he will admit paternity of my older sister even if he doesn't accept responsibility for assaulting her mother and causing the pregnancy. That would for sure help her emotionally. All in all, there is a lot to take in this week. Surprisingly I slept well last night but nerves are setting in and I'm just hanging on. Focusing on the fact that this is coming to an end, closure, and after all of these years, decades, that is a good focus to keep going with. Meanwhile I have had upsets with easy child's father and this ridiculous filing for custody to move her away with him. She apparently became angry with him the other night and forced him to hear that she will never move with him. Apparently he said first of she didn't want to move he would stop court action. Yet that hasn't happened and even she told me and SO last night that she can't imagine he will let go of court. Isn't that sad? I'm tired and weary and really just am Glad one major thing is wrapping up this week. I am however not at all looking forward to this week and I wish I could pull a blanket over my head and just get a call from the crown attorney telling me how it went and otherwise shut it all out. I'd refer it later so I'm just doing my best to relax, not dwell (not so easy), and get through it. I'll be grateful for the coming weekend. Closing a door on this is so long overdue. I will be glad to have spare reserves and to be back to regular things, such as the board. So many of you all have so much going on right now. Know that I am thinking of you all!!!