So far so good. Monday he had a rough night, but he has done well after that. Went to his DDA meeting on Wed and Fri, saw pain doctor on Wed and also primary doctor, saw psychiatrist on Thursday. He broke down crying in psychiatrist's office over what he had put his family through, and said psychiatrist was almost in tears too. psychiatrist is trying depakote as husband is still having some strange thoughts (not sure if they are suicidal, but would not doubt it). I did not go to psychiatrist visit with him, I have been over involved and am stepping back. I did fax psychiatrist a note so he would know what is going on, as I had been so involved that I felt he should know what I was doing, as before if I did not go to an appointment it was a red flag that he was not living at home and things were not going well. husband came home and told me that from now on his mental health stuff was between him and psychiatrist, it stresses me out too much to be involved in it. Probably true, and fine with me. I think husband will be more honest with psychiatrist if I am not involved, even though before I did not always go back into the room and sat in the the lobby many times. Pain doctor is scheduling more nerve ablations. Hopefully that will help with his pain, and he will start Savella for fibro pain next week sometime too. Managing his pain is now much more complicated and he has many fewer options. Eventually I could see pain doctor putting in a pain pump, but I would suspect that pain doctor would want husband to be clean and sober for awhile before he did that. husband has been helping around the house a little more. He helped me fold and put away the mountain of laundry and we had the laundry couch cleared of for just over a day. He played monopoly with the kids last night and I went to bed early. Really, his whole perspective has changed. He told me that it (life??) should be about the kids, and he thought it was before but it wasn't, it was about him finding drugs. He says we need to find time for us and only us (wow, really????). When he goes to the meetings I drive and wait in the car(doesn't bother me, gives me an hr to sleep or play on my phone) and that gives us a half hour each way to talk. He really seems to enjoy the meetings, and I think that is because they combine mental health with substance abuse. I think he feels like he fits in there, and that is good. I realize that this is a day by day thing, and will be for a long time if not forever. But for now? Things are better. His sleep is still messed up, but he and psychiatrist are working on that. psychiatrist will see him again Monday, so psychiatrist is keeping a very close eye on him. Yesterday we both went in the bedroom to take a nap, and usually I just cannot bring myself to cuddle. Just too much bs is usually going on. I fell asleep on his chest, and woke up that way. He was denied his SSDI as he does not have enough work credits as he has not worked in so long, but we do qualify for him to get on SSI, so we have an appointment in March at the local Social Security office to start that procedure. They asked if we wanted a phone or an in person appointment, and I went with the in person appointment. Just seems better. We will both go, and I hope he gets that. At this point anything would help.