I appreciate your thoughts ladies!! I had a bilateral mastectomy on Aug. 20th. The pathology report showed 3 malignant lymph nodes. All other body scans, MRI's, etc. were clean. So this left me at a stage 2 cancer - I met with the oncologist today. I absolutely LOVED him. I started crying and he literally got up and sat next to me and held my hand for a few minutes. He wears jeans, polo shirt, and sneakers. What a great guy. Not to mention he has 30 plus years as an oncologist - his specialty is breast cancers. His suggested course of action is 20 weeks of chemotherapy. The first 8 weeks will be the 'tough' ones - followed by a less aggressive chemo for 12 more weeks. Then I will have radiation to the axillary area - just to be sure we kill anything left in the lymph nodes. Then I will go on an anti estrogen pill for about 5 years or until I hit menopause. I am praying for any early menopause. I have had some normal struggles about losing my breasts. I was very 'endowed' and have always seen breasts as a part of my sexuality and femininity. Needless to say - the mirror is not my friend right now. But, I am making progress. I am nervous about chemo - although most women I have talked to get through it very well. There are such good drugs now to combat the side effects. My prayer is that I will not get nauseous/vomity. I'm pretty wimpy when it comes to nausea. I'm OK with losing my hair - I mean heh - I just lost my boobs - what's a little hair. And unlike my boobs, my hair will grow back. LOL. I go tomorrow for some routine heart health tests. And then next Wednesday to get my 'port' put in. This allows the chemo to be easily attached every week without further pokes, etc. In the midst of all of this - our house - which we had taken off of the market - SOLD!! God's timing is always mysterious. LOL. For us - this is financial freedom. We have bought a much smaller house - and will have 1/3 of our current mortgage. This is such a huge blessing. So all in all - things are good. Well things are OK - but God is good. Again I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. I'll try to do better about updates. But, geesh, having cancer's nearly a full time job. Hugs to you all.