This might get lengthy. My advanced apologies. I also apologize for not being on the board more. I've been lurking, reading, but not feeling as though I have much to offer. And as is my nature, when things get tough I tend to isolate. Yeah, I know. Real healthy. An excellent example for the kid, right? OK. So you all remember (and if not, here is a refresher) that Tink was caught looking at online porn a couple months ago. Well we have a new psychiatrist and a new therapist as well. (I can never keep the abbreviations straight...psychiatrist for psychiatrist and therapist for therapist? Well that's how I am going to assume it is) I had every intention of letting the therapist know about that incident but by the time we started seeing her it was long since an issue, plus we were dealing with other things (her dad in jail, plus the royal meltdown that I captured on video) so I never got to it. Last week's session, she was so out of control that therapist almost had to call for a transport to the ER. This past weekend Tink had the same friend overnight (same friend that called attention to Tink's surfing skills). I talked to her mom this morning and evidently they got creative playing with Barbies. According to friend's mom, they had the dolls engaging in sex. Friend's mom also said that friend told her that Tink told friend that she was going to take her pitchfork (plastic toy pitchfork that she used for her Halloween costume) and stick it in her (friend's) vagina. I am beside myself! I wasn't going to ask Tink about it today since we see therapist tomorrow, but she overheard and when I got off the phone she immediately said "it was friend's idea". WHen I asked her exactly what the friend's idea was (she only heard my half of the conversation so she had no idea what friend's mom said) she told me that friend suggested they make the Barbie's in a strip club. They used the pitchfork as the stripper pole. How in the hell do 8 year olds know what a stripper pole is? Now, I know that friend is a story teller. She generally does not out and out lie but she embellishes her stories constantly. I also know that it does not matter which of these things happened (or maybe they both did) and probably each girl is at least partly responsible. I asked Tink again if anyone had ever touched her inappropriately. She swears no, and I believe her. But I wonder if she saw things she should not have at some point wiht her dad and she is not telling in order to protect him. I just don't know. I am at a loss. More and more I am seeing how much of Tink's attitued is my fault. She is so spoiled, she acts so entitiled, so selfish...at least some of this had to be because I reaised her that way. I am feeling really defeated and unsure if I can go on. I don't know if I have it in me. I am so depressed over this. Does she maybe need an Residential Treatment Center (RTC)? Her behavior is not constant. It's so hit or miss. I am so drained. I have nothing but admiration for you moms out there who keep going (I am thinking of KLMNO right now, I read your daily updates and can't believe how much you do).