Hello friends. So glad to hear AGs boy is doing well. Praying for TLs boy. Hoping others are hanging in. I thought it was time to update. difficult child is on her 5 th job since she got out of last Residential Treatment Center (RTC) 19 months ago. She was moved out but because of work hours, she needed to be here most nights so we could get her to work. I had 2 days of peace a week but that ended when she became suicidal about 2 months ago. She is home full time now. She is going to voc.rehab next week. We are hoping they force the issue of seeing a psychiatric. and counselor again. She just refuses to see one when we push the issue. She very much wants to treat her anxiety from PTSD but very much doesnt believe there is a medication to do it....that is, besides her beloved marijuana. This seemingly benign, nonaddictive drug has really taken a toll. She has put on a very large amount of weight, she does not pay her court fine like she should and she still has not paid to get drivers ed. She is so unmotivated. I think she only works to have MJ money. Her clothes are so small she wears sweats most of the time. She wont even buy new clothes. She is helping around the house. Just standing still waiting for the vocational rehab people. I just cant kick her out, not ready and it doesnt feel right. It was the worst ever dealing with this first suicidal episode since she became an adult and having her away from home. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is an incipid, horrible mh issue and so is ptsd. I am taking better care of myself and staying out of much more than I use to....detaching as I can.