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<blockquote data-quote="Scent of Cedar *" data-source="post: 615313" data-attributes="member: 17461"><p>Hi</p><p></p><p>:O)</p><p></p><p>I have been reworking so many things in my past, Recovering. I am seeing everything, every single thing, so differently, now. It's the same stuff, but I seem larger, brighter, full of breath and color. I have a little perspective, now.</p><p></p><p>It's a very strange difference.</p><p></p><p>I am still so surprised by how little any of it hurts me. I see the things that should hurt (talking about my sister, here)...but it just seems that she should be able to do whatever she wants to. I'm good with that. I just want her to know that I know what she's doing. I don't think I am angry. I don't miss her because, as husband is so quick to remind me, there was nothing real there to miss. </p><p></p><p>Mostly, I'm surprised.</p><p></p><p>It seems to have been easy. It keeps being easy. So far, nothing bad has happened. Looking back, the bad things that happened had nothing to do with me, and everything to do with who my sister wants everyone (mostly herself, because she is the only one being fooled) to believe she is.</p><p></p><p>I like the way I see things, now. I am calmer in every area of my life. Even driving, I notice a difference.</p><p></p><p>What to hay, right?</p><p></p><p>Have you found the same kinds of things, Recovering? I know you chose to relive some very scary places and times, too.</p><p></p><p>Part of this is that my anger is right there on the surface. But underneath, I am not so angry or stuck on things, anymore.</p><p></p><p>Cedar</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Scent of Cedar *, post: 615313, member: 17461"] Hi :O) I have been reworking so many things in my past, Recovering. I am seeing everything, every single thing, so differently, now. It's the same stuff, but I seem larger, brighter, full of breath and color. I have a little perspective, now. It's a very strange difference. I am still so surprised by how little any of it hurts me. I see the things that should hurt (talking about my sister, here)...but it just seems that she should be able to do whatever she wants to. I'm good with that. I just want her to know that I know what she's doing. I don't think I am angry. I don't miss her because, as husband is so quick to remind me, there was nothing real there to miss. Mostly, I'm surprised. It seems to have been easy. It keeps being easy. So far, nothing bad has happened. Looking back, the bad things that happened had nothing to do with me, and everything to do with who my sister wants everyone (mostly herself, because she is the only one being fooled) to believe she is. I like the way I see things, now. I am calmer in every area of my life. Even driving, I notice a difference. What to hay, right? Have you found the same kinds of things, Recovering? I know you chose to relive some very scary places and times, too. Part of this is that my anger is right there on the surface. But underneath, I am not so angry or stuck on things, anymore. Cedar [/QUOTE]
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