i have spent almost 3 mos it'll be in 2 weeks helping other ppl, trying my best to empower them be there for them, help them, give them ideas, resources go to court with-them, you name it. yet i have not had anywhere to put my stuff and the build up is severe.
i need therapy bigtime to get rid of my frustrations the ones i'm running into with my job that is so hard some days i have to sit in my truck and cry to get it out what i see, what i can't fix, the whole thing.
and difficult child is hurting bad right nwo and i'm a mix of angry and sad all at once. i hold it together well when i handle her yet my frustration of continuially trying to get a square peg (difficult child) into a round hole i'm sooo done and disgusted. there aren't enough resources, or qualified doctors to help or therapists that can handle her issues and endless needs.
i'm it on a stick and it is tired and out of ideas tongiht at least.
45 minutes the kid sat in nurse today because the two psychiatric in school were busy this is why she has no place in being there. no place at all.
she cried toinght the cry i havent' heard in a while i want to be like the other kids, i dont' want to be like this anymore. great. freaking great is all i can say. i need a parent advocate tonight. it just gets to hte point where the sheer frustration of the overall shabby mental health field makes me want to puke. that this one little girl can't be handled by anyoen is absurd and so not exceptable that no one can figure out how to amke her comfortable for long term.
the seroquel works for while than stops, it's like a bandaid on a never ending situation that has been battled since birth. my one wish for her is to be able to just live one day without the anxiety and hyperactivity or depression or paranoia just one day to feel what that feels like.
i tried spinning tongiht to a client she was hopeless, lost, crying and i spun it yet i can't spin it to me. why is that???
ok sorry i know i'm doing pity party mode tonight i apologize that isnt' the true me i'm just really disgusted and kinda fed up.
thanks for letting me blow
i need therapy bigtime to get rid of my frustrations the ones i'm running into with my job that is so hard some days i have to sit in my truck and cry to get it out what i see, what i can't fix, the whole thing.
and difficult child is hurting bad right nwo and i'm a mix of angry and sad all at once. i hold it together well when i handle her yet my frustration of continuially trying to get a square peg (difficult child) into a round hole i'm sooo done and disgusted. there aren't enough resources, or qualified doctors to help or therapists that can handle her issues and endless needs.
i'm it on a stick and it is tired and out of ideas tongiht at least.
45 minutes the kid sat in nurse today because the two psychiatric in school were busy this is why she has no place in being there. no place at all.
she cried toinght the cry i havent' heard in a while i want to be like the other kids, i dont' want to be like this anymore. great. freaking great is all i can say. i need a parent advocate tonight. it just gets to hte point where the sheer frustration of the overall shabby mental health field makes me want to puke. that this one little girl can't be handled by anyoen is absurd and so not exceptable that no one can figure out how to amke her comfortable for long term.
the seroquel works for while than stops, it's like a bandaid on a never ending situation that has been battled since birth. my one wish for her is to be able to just live one day without the anxiety and hyperactivity or depression or paranoia just one day to feel what that feels like.
i tried spinning tongiht to a client she was hopeless, lost, crying and i spun it yet i can't spin it to me. why is that???
ok sorry i know i'm doing pity party mode tonight i apologize that isnt' the true me i'm just really disgusted and kinda fed up.
thanks for letting me blow