I need to hide or vent or something. In two hours, husband will be in court (for the child support order) to see if mother in law will show up. This is it. Getting down to the point where we will know if she's going to keep her word or if, once again, it was all a pack of lies to keep us on her puppet strings. It all comes down to believing her words. Yeah....she's got a great track record. I need to keep custody but I will never interfere. ...she interferred from day one. husband pushes for custody again and she says I'll never take your kids from you. ...and she took his son. husband pushes for custody of his daughter. She says I'll never take your daughter from you. ....and she takes daughter. When she said that she needed child support, husband said okay. Tell me how much you want and we'll talk it out. She says I need to go through the courts. She had already started the paperwork weeks before talking to husband. Then in March when the court was recommending over a grand in support, husband tells mother in law that we can't make it with that amount. mother in law says, Oh all I want is $250-$300. I'll change the papers to say that. Today is court date and she hasn't made a move yet. OH.... but she did tell husband that if he got rid of me that she might change the order. Nice! husband was gone for so long on his last trip so that we could get to a point that we could make it. We finally got to a place where we can pay all our bills on our base pay. My weekend job provides enough money to cover gas and some groceries. Then if husband gets any Occupational Therapist (OT), we have a little bit extra. If the order goes through, which it looks like it will, we will start out every month $1,000 in the hole. How do you make up a grand each month?? We've cut out almost everything that we already. We've already cut our water bill by 75%, we've cut out every extra that we had. The only extra that we still have is a cable connection and during summer an internet connection for easy child. I'm stressed. I'm scared. I'm so angry at a mother who can throw her own son under a bus for her enjoyment. If/when this order gets signed today, husband will have to take another out of town trip to help cover expenses. The only out of town trip coming up is Japan....and it will be worked over the Christmas holiday. Wheee... no husband for Christmas. I think the hardest part right now is just having that slight bit of hope that maybe, just maybe, mother in law will have a tiny show of a heart and lower the payment like she promised. On the up side of all of this.... husband & I are very close. This has been drawing us together in a tight knit support of each other. We've been talking about how we can look at this storm (largest class tornado!) as an adventure! We'll make it a gift to us, a challenge and adventure. I told him that maybe on this adventure we could meet the scarecrow and tinman since we already know the wicked witch of the west He laughed, but said I can't put that on my Facebook page. shucks! If nothing else, two difficult child's and this site has taught me the value of a sense of humor!! Thank you for letting me get this out. I thought my chest was going to explode!