I seem to be having problems saying the word NO to my family and it is going to end up either killing me or causing me really horrible harm physically. My therapist is convinced it goes back to the way I was not nurtured as a small child so I feel as if I am not worth diddly. I am also a fixer and want to please everyone...sigh. Because of my physical problems I am getting really worn down. I am in so much pain constantly now and I can hardly walk more than a few feet without severe pain and fatigue. If you could see me trying to walk up the steps to the house it would be almost comical if I wasnt in such pain. My family seems to think that because I dont work that I should still be able to do everything around the house...all the driving everyone everywhere, all the dishes, cooking, laundry, etc. I cant. My day starts around 4;45 am when I have to get up to take Cory about 8 miles to meet his ride to work. Come home. Then I have to be up again at 7 to take Mandy and Billy to school. I have to get Billy from school at noon and bring him home or take him to work depending on his schedule. Then I have to go get him from work. Sometimes..but not often...I have to take Mandy to work. I am supposed to wash the dishes and get dinner started during the interim. Throw clothes in to wash and dry. Feed the animals, run to the store, go to my doctor appointments...all that minutia. Something has to give. husband has to get up at 4 anyway to go to work and I dont see a reason in the world that he cant leave a few minutes earlier to take Cory so I dont have to so I dont have to have that one on me. I can never get to bed before midnight or so. I just cant. He doesnt understand this and it makes him mad. I am also thinking of telling Billy he has to tell the store that his available hours are from the time he gets out of class to 7 pm at night...no more until 9 pm at night. I dont do well driving that late. If I could get Tony to take Cory in the mornings and Billy's hours changed, plus get them to take on the rest of the house hold chores I might actually make it. if not, Im gonna end up dying. Im seriously considering telling my family that my doctor has ordered this change.