hi
i hope everyone's well and not freaking over this swine flu thing. I know how much anxiety it can cause, if we let it. I've been feeling it. I hate not being able to know what will happen. kills me.
so, boyfriend and i go back into couples counseling tomorrow. i gotta be honest i have no clue if it'll help, yet i'm willing to try it for a bit.
our relationship has been like a roller coaster ride. thank goodness he works more than he's here. it's so odd we function incredibly well with-the 5 kids together it's amazing. yet there are so many issues, so very many that have not been handled and if we have a good 3 days we tank again due to the fact they were never handled.
i'm getting tired of it and needed to vent. it caues me great stress on and off i gotta say inbetween the struggles with difficult child, easy child and my own stuff.
i just dont' know what type of clarity or understanding will be derived at this point from weekly therapy. especially since my attitude at this point stinks. she'll have to be one good therapist.
life's just so short, ya know? i dont' trust him after what he's done in past, he can't except that and round and round we go. i can't stand the situation with his ex, i think it's insane and i'm sick of that also. kids i love though, his that is. their a pain in the rearend at times, like alot of children yet i have grown to love them. my kids are happy here. yet that isn't enough of a reason if i'm not happy.
just hoping that this therapy helps and wondering what time limit i can set to it. meanwhile i have to start getting my stuff in order finally so i can handle things if i am alone.
thanks for listening just had to get that off my chest, and what better place than here
i hope everyone's well and not freaking over this swine flu thing. I know how much anxiety it can cause, if we let it. I've been feeling it. I hate not being able to know what will happen. kills me.
so, boyfriend and i go back into couples counseling tomorrow. i gotta be honest i have no clue if it'll help, yet i'm willing to try it for a bit.
our relationship has been like a roller coaster ride. thank goodness he works more than he's here. it's so odd we function incredibly well with-the 5 kids together it's amazing. yet there are so many issues, so very many that have not been handled and if we have a good 3 days we tank again due to the fact they were never handled.
i'm getting tired of it and needed to vent. it caues me great stress on and off i gotta say inbetween the struggles with difficult child, easy child and my own stuff.
i just dont' know what type of clarity or understanding will be derived at this point from weekly therapy. especially since my attitude at this point stinks. she'll have to be one good therapist.
life's just so short, ya know? i dont' trust him after what he's done in past, he can't except that and round and round we go. i can't stand the situation with his ex, i think it's insane and i'm sick of that also. kids i love though, his that is. their a pain in the rearend at times, like alot of children yet i have grown to love them. my kids are happy here. yet that isn't enough of a reason if i'm not happy.
just hoping that this therapy helps and wondering what time limit i can set to it. meanwhile i have to start getting my stuff in order finally so i can handle things if i am alone.
thanks for listening just had to get that off my chest, and what better place than here