So I am apologizing right now if this is scattered... hee hee. I have not slept in 3 days... Family doctor prescribed me Ambian yesterday and wanted to wait and see how this all worked for a month... I slept for 4 hours and then wide awake again. So then luckily K was hypo-manic also and refused to go to her therapist apt, so I went. Told therapist everything that had been going on. I have been tracking months of my slowly amping up... not sleeping for a few days and then coming down. I don't get depressed so to speak, I just don't want to leave the house for a few days. I want to avoid people and places... So therapist went a bit over my past, she had some info and went over it a bit more. She finally admitted that she was wondering when I was going to come talk to her. She said she thinks I am a rapid cycler, I am hypo-manic most of the time, with some up's and down's. She feels I am Cyclothymic. I agree with her at this point. I had already felt I had a mood disorder, I mean realisticly Mental Illness seems to be running ramant in my family... I have just never really talked about it with someone seriously before... So she wants me to talk to a psychiatrist just to have a cohesive plan. But for now, since the Ambian doesn't seem to be smart, she called my family doctor and wants to up my Topamax, since I am already on it, leave me on the Zoloft, since I am already on it. She also wants me to try Trazodone at night to help me sleep for a short period... I don't like the idea of this... but I need to sleep. So right now I feel like I have the brain shaked from lack of sleep... K is a wreck and psychiatrist feels if she gets any worse we will have to Hospitalize her again... We are pulling her off of the Geodon and Neurontin (Geodon't and Nuerotic in our home)... husband is changing his work so he can work from here, he got an office here. His partners realized this was very important. I am somewhat relieved to get help for myself but just sick of the words Mental Illness... oh, and my Dear dad is trying to get in touch again... still talking about moving here. therapist also feels I have PTSD, she wants to try EMDR therapy on me. so that is my week... yeah!!! The best part is I have Mental Illness and no artistic talents what so ever... ain't I supposed to be creative at least???