On the front page of the newly formatted site - There's an interesting article about how antisocial behavior in our difficult child's by age 16 is linked to depression in pregnancy. I NEVER considered that. I thought about what I ate: like aspartamine, microwaved foods, one single glass of wine (which I had one glass and said no more very early on), BBQ foods - did the charcoal do it?, processed foods, MSG, I mean I made myself crazy trying to figure this out. Did I stand too close to an Xray machine, Was it the abuse? Was it his drug habits and somehow the doctors were WRONG -that it WAS the dads drug abuse that did this? Genetics (because I'm adopted)-kept thinking what if I'm a Manson farm kid? I mean you have no idea what hell on earth I have put myself through before therapy about this kid. But never had it occurred to me that depression could have been a factor. (Slaps head) Then I think - WOW----he had several girlfriends, he was beating on me, he never came home, when he did? He was high or drunk, We moved 5 times while I was pregnant and right up until the last 2 weeks, I had a bad tooth I pulled MYSELF because there was no money, and I was just sad all the time. - I was still packing/working/ OMG....yeah I was depressed. I kept thinking "What kind of a life is this baby going to have with a Father like this?" So I'm curious to see how many Mothers were chipper, happy, couldn't wait to have a child and it turned out to be a difficult child anyway. I just had no idea Moms were depressed when they were pregnant - I really thought I was happy until I started thinking about it after reading this. Wow what an eyeopener. I was happy I had Dude - but wow. And you?