When I was a little girl, I never questioned that I WOULD be a wife someday, and I would be a mother. But when I hit 25 or so, I kinda decided I was NOT going to marry after all....becuz truth is I had not found anyone quite right for me. And then, LOL, I did! ROFL. And so I got married and became a wife. ANd OMG how exciting, I finally became a mother- I think I wanted that hat more than any other ever, and that hat did not come easy for me at all. (Oh be careful what you wish for, LOL) and THEN I wanted to be an Aunt.becuz I had no neices or nephews yet that called me aunt (My bother did not make his kids use a title) and finally my sister had kids and taught them to say aunt especially for me. I had such fond affection for my own aunts, and thought it would be SUCH an honor. (and it is) I wanted to be a doctor, but, life did not afford me that opportunity in any way I could manage and work out....and by the time I was 40, I settled on being very excited to become a nurse. ANd now for so many years I have been a lot of things. Maybe too many, LOL, I am not sure. So for several years now I am ALWAYS so and sos wife, so and sos mom, Mrs So and so.....somewhere in the journey, I stopped being ME. I am referred to as an attachment to my husband or my children or a patient.....or whatever. It has gotten even more that way since I had to stop working. I did not realize how much I missed by being able to be ME sometimes. Tonite I got to be involved in something not related in any way shape or form to my parents, my siblings, my husband or my kids. I got to be involved in something that was not related at all to any of their difficulties, diagnosis'es or disabilities. it had absolutely nothing to do with their education, health, military status or our financial standing. It had a LOT to do with MY professional education, MY life experience and MY skills. As a human being. When I was spoken to, it was by MY name. MY FIRST name. My input was not looked on as undesireable, or stupid, or an intrusion. My opinion was truly valued. My efforts truly appreciated. It had been a LONG LONG time. I really really liked it. It sure felt good to not wear ANY hat tonite. It felt great just to be ME. Just for the sake of being ME. Yes, I still treasure my wife hat, and my mom hat, etc. I treasure them very very much. Yes, my husband is still my very best friend and I would give my very life for my kids most iwllingly without a 2nd thought. BUT my husband has been SO ill for SO long.....and he is not always "available" and my kids are growing and need me less intensely. I got way too used to IEP meetings, WRAP meetings etc where my input or opinion was less than appreciated. This felt SO good tonite. I wish for you all......to have some YOU time in some part of your day or week.