I'm just wondering what has been everyone's experience as their 'hardest day' or week or event in dealing with their difficult child? Was it a diagnosis day, an arrest? Mine was this week, I think (so far, anyway): I have really taken a huge step back from difficult child. I put the ball in his court as far as keeping in touch because I'm so tired of feeling like I'm chasing the dog that escaped from the backyard. I've found a great support group, I've called all the psychiatrists I can - but now difficult child won't go, I've tried therapists - but now difficult child won't go, I've called the school - their hands are tied as much as mine - or so they say, I don't give him any money, I can't make him take his medications, I can't get him to call, I can't get him to let me know where he is, I can't get him to go to school. I have felt shaky, heart palpitations, upset stomach all week. Why? Because I have finally realized that I do not have any control over this. There is nothing left for me to do but pray and move on with my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm not giving up on difficult child but I have spent so much time focused on who I can call next, what I can put into place next that it has given me some sense of control. Now that I feel I have nothing left to do I feel so incredibly helpless. I've been keeping myself so busy 'doing' that it's been easy to not 'feel' and now there is nothing left to 'do' so I have to feel.