What do you call that? When you focus on or obsess over what's NOT going to happen and your disappointment over that instead of what IS going to happen and the positive aspects of it? Let me see if I can give an example: You like to bowl with your wife. Because of life getting in the way, you don't get to go bowling as much as you'd like to. You're going on a week-long trip with your wife to a fun place, but there won't be any place to bowl where you're going. You're not bringing your lucky bowling shoes or ball on the trip. You want to extend your trip a few days when you get home and pick up your lucky gear so you can go to a bowling alley in another town for two days with your wife. You're not even thinking about the trip you're about to go on, or considering the impact of taking off for a few more days. All you're worried about is whether or not you're going to get to go bowling with your wife and your lucky bowling gear. Is this Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)-type behavior? Is it an addiction? Is it part of depression? Would it make you mad that your spouse was more concerned about what he's NOT getting to do than what he IS getting to do?