KFld
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My son comes to me weeks ago and tells me he's relapsed and doesn't want to live like this anymore and asks for my help. He's back on the suboxone, yeah he was kicked out of his apartment, but he's in a hotel, he's working, he's able to pay his hotel and his car insurance, his girlfriend is working more hours so they shouldn't have any problem paying for whatever they need, but I'm pins and needles constantly waiting for something to happen?? I'm driving myself crazy. I think about it constantly, I can't sleep!! Why??????
He should be getting his car back today or tomorrrow, which is great because we are still driving him back and forth, but he also doesn't have a license, which he should be getting back in the next few weeks, so I keep thinking about that. I'm praying he doesn't get pulled over in the meantime.
I'm not sure if it's because when he was in his apartment if he screwed up, eviction is a long process and the hotel can throw him out no questions asked. Maybe it's because I found out my insurance won't pay for inpatient and I guess there is a kind of comfort in knowing if he relapsed and went inpatient, he would have a roof over his head??
I've been reading my one day at a time in alanon every morning, saying the serenity prayer daily, trying to make myself just live and not worry, but I can't seem to make myself do it.
Any suggestions on how to get out of this funk and stop thinking about things that haven't or may not even happen??
He should be getting his car back today or tomorrrow, which is great because we are still driving him back and forth, but he also doesn't have a license, which he should be getting back in the next few weeks, so I keep thinking about that. I'm praying he doesn't get pulled over in the meantime.
I'm not sure if it's because when he was in his apartment if he screwed up, eviction is a long process and the hotel can throw him out no questions asked. Maybe it's because I found out my insurance won't pay for inpatient and I guess there is a kind of comfort in knowing if he relapsed and went inpatient, he would have a roof over his head??
I've been reading my one day at a time in alanon every morning, saying the serenity prayer daily, trying to make myself just live and not worry, but I can't seem to make myself do it.
Any suggestions on how to get out of this funk and stop thinking about things that haven't or may not even happen??