After picking up my daughter early evening just because she hates the refuge where she is and says she is bullied ( which there has been evidence of but minor things ) I finally thought it's better to just get her out for the evening as I only get messages all night saying this that and the other is going on and I live on my nerves. We had bite to eat .. Then basically we had a drive to kill some time as I picked her up at 6pm ... I can't take her back to mine as my husband her step dad have fallen out over her past behaviour and amount of stress in the last few years. So I managed to get to 9 o'clock and she could see I was exhausted I've not slept for weeks or maybe years properly but the last few days I've literally had two hours max a night .... She then says I'm not going back yet can you carry on driving I want to stay out till 12 at least. We spoke about a few things like her partner she is seeing and she said she is not seeing this person anymore because other things in his life are more important and that she always comes second by everyone .. Then went on to say you put me after your husband ( my husband leaves as 6 in the morning and returns at 7 in the evening I see my daughter most days as she won't give over and has no real friends .. So I think what she means is when I drop her back at around 5.30 -6 PM so I can at least get my husband some dinner and be in when he is home that's putting her second .. By 11pm I had to park the car I was so so tired mentally and physically but still she looked at the clock and said its not 12 yet ... We got coffee and I had to just sit in car park. She talked some more saying how her real dad and step dad are useless and why I'm with my husband she doesn't know .... I feel like I spend my days pleasing her then my nights pleasing him ( not in a nasty way but no one cares if I am tired or would like a dinner ... I feel totally miserable and angry that I can't say no I just want to run away and find peace in my head ... I'm 37 and literally have no real life I look a wreck feel a wreck and don't eat or sleep and suffer constant tummy ache and I shake a lot. My daughter might be getting a room in a shared house on Wednesday and I'm just waiting for the next thing to be wrong in there I don't think I can take one more problem on board my head is a mass of confusion.